let it be

and so, in this vast sea of indecision that i am currently drowning in, i have at last found a beacon of hope on the horizon. why it took me so long to come to this realization is beyond me. alas, i have realized that, even though i crave change and variance, i have had my fill. i have lived in seven different locations in the last year which translates into seven different houses in five different cities in two states. in a mere 365 days. i am ridiculous. i am staying put for now. one year. absolutely no changes in life until january of next year. it is time for roots and growth and healing. i need this time to figure myself out. i need time to be. i need to be whoever i find that i need to be, whoever that is. i need freedom for myself. i simply need time to just be. and so shall i recieve. i have big life decisions that need to be made. i need to process everything that has happened in the last year and i need to clear my head. i need to get into the nitty gritty and live it. period.